30 Days of Observations… take 2 (Day 1)

Day One – Resumption

Two years ago this month I was inspired to undertake a personal quest… I would spend time every day for 30 days writing about something true on my heart.  I would be brave and honest and transparent.  So I began.  In the middle of that time something odd seemed to be happening.  During that time my dog passed away, and the next day I lost my job and many of my local friends, and by the end of it I was packing up my family and heading away to… well, I didn’t really know…  It was heart wrenching and raw and the most scared I think I have ever been.

But the writing… oh, the writing.  I can’t speak for anyone else, but it has touched and broken my heart over and over again.  It has become much of who I am now.  I see now that it was not a horrible coincidence that I took that month to do that very thing, nor was it a cruel joke of a petty God.  It was something else entirely.  It was the foreshadow of redemption.  You see, I was writing the very things I would need to learn and rely on in the 12 months that were to follow.  It was those words that rattle in my brain over and over again while I wondered lost in the “land between”.  It was a gift of great grace from a loving Father who used my own pen to speak to me.

Those 12 months, my literal year of Jubilee, was the scariest, most horrifying, absolutely best, most miraculous year of my life.  It was my own story of redemption from a broken heart.  12 months to the day I packed up my family once again and began the work of resumption.  However, I left with that time and place and people always having a tattoo on my soul (and a literal one on my arm).

So here I am again with that same desire to spend 30 days writing from the soul.  Now, I seriously hope that it is for entirely different reasons than last time!!!!  But I know the result will be, for me, a continued resumption in the grace of God.  I find that the heart that seeks redemption, when pressed, doesn’t ooze bitterness or mean-spirited bile.  Rather, it speaks of hope, and peace and grace and life.  May I look inside and see less of me and more of Him.

Ready?

Let’s go…

This should be interesting.

Author’s note:  Now, while I’m committed to writing something everyday for 30 days, that doesn’t mean it will be consistently posted.  For one, many of those days will be in the woods away from the things of man (and laptops).  Those days will be written down and transcribed later, so somedays may have nothing and some days may have a bunch.  Also, as I found last time, some days I can’t stop writing, and other days I had only a single line.  That is the nature of this project.  Some days I might find the content way to personal to share.  What I will promise is this… it will be edifying (that is the nature of this project) and it will be honest.  It will not be political! (Frankly, I can no longer see that forest through the trees).  It will be kind hearted but it will display a man who doesn’t shy away from the fact that his heart is broken and in need of a savior.  Aren’t we all just tired of pretending we aren’t?  I know I am.

Finally, it will be posted here on Facebook and also at my blog site www.AccidentalKidsPastor.com   See you there.